An autobiographical short film about bugchasing, the intentional self infection with HIV. In the work author and director Martin Willibald Meisl deals with his memories and tries to explore his motivations. - When did the tendency towards self-destructive behavior arise and which ones can be seen? For that, he works with reenactments of artworks such as photos by Joel-Peter Witkin or Michaelangelo’s Pietá. A look at the later consequences of the decision is given. Discrimination, side effects of the therapy, and feelings towards the fresh infection. There is a clear change in his sexuality, and new positions taken.

An autobiographical short film about bugchasing, the intentional self infection with HIV. In the work author and director Martin Willibald Meisl deals with his memories and tries to explore his motivations. - When did the tendency towards self-destructive behavior arise and which ones can be seen? For that, he works with reenactments of artworks such as photos by Joel-Peter Witkin or Michaelangelo’s Pietá. A look at the later consequences of the decision is given. Discrimination, side effects of the therapy, and feelings towards the fresh infection. There is a clear change in his sexuality, and new positions taken.

An autobiographical short film about bugchasing, the intentional self infection with HIV. In the work author and director Martin Willibald Meisl deals with his memories and tries to explore his motivations. - When did the tendency towards self-destructive behavior arise and which ones can be seen? For that, he works with reenactments of artworks such as photos by Joel-Peter Witkin or Michaelangelo’s Pietá. A look at the later consequences of the decision is given. Discrimination, side effects of the therapy, and feelings towards the fresh infection. There is a clear change in his sexuality, and new positions taken.