Jill Garner is a well-educated, successful, music producer. But after being brutally raped and left to feel responsible for the attack, by a Los Angeles County Police Detective, she finds herself forced to find any way, to emotionally survive.The time-line explodes in Jillâ's life, from the second of her abduction and rape, to her ensuing nervous breakdown… to her traumatic psychological meltdown, through prescription drug abuse. Jill desperately searches for a reason to continue her life. She begins to search for herself through reckless and cloudy relationships with others, as well as drugs. With the failure of each relationship, Jill traumatically disintegrates. Continuing her drug abuse, she decides to video-diary a trip to La Madera, New Mexico, to prove to the one she truly loves, that she has changed.While on her trip, she eventually becomes delusional. She finally locates her true love. Will this ultimately lead to her final salvation, or her ultimate destruction?

Amanda McKay's biggest problem isn't autism--it's her own father.